I think it's pretty obvious now. The relationship has turned sour. In another words, we're officially over. I have nothing else to say here, but I'd say I'm still pretty numb about this whole thing. I know it's hard for him, but it's just as hard for me as it is for him. I hope he can move on easy.

Well after so much distress, I have been spending time over at P's place ever since Monday. I didn't expect it to turned out to be so much fun! I'd never get bored of the things we do even though it's indoors, I always get the attention I want, I'm always entertained and fascinated, and the house is so alluring with candles burning all over! And Tita's new kitten Bella is so cute! Cute just like the owner's brother but irritating in between, hehe. We had a random photography session halfway too! Sneaking out in the middle of the night, walking in the rain and having pratas for supper! I really enjoyed my 2 days stay there. Very, very happy and I'd love to do that again, minus the worrying part of course, hahaha.




Get me this and I'll be your girlfriend okay? :D
There you go. Big picture. Explains how happy I am now compared to last week. It has been full of undying bullshits that I couldn't deal with. I miss having boyfriend around during the holidays, he prioritize his time by working like an eager beaver and uses the spare time to play LAN gaming. Oh bummer. I can't seem to depict the very last joyful moments we had together. It's been quite a while.

And now I am so full with plans! I try to savvy every moments, every delinquents, every ecstasy I can get. I think I am seeing more of life now. I try to appreciate whatever things that comes in the way. I try to see all setbacks in a positive way. I love my life now. I have wonderful friendsxzxz. Haha sometimes I wonder what are other people’s definition of ‘friends’. Can be really intriguing you know, HAHAHA.

2009 is coming to an end. And then the people will be so obsessed with New Year's resolutions. Well mine is to keep up with previous year's resolutions, hahaha how ironic eh. FARAH: “Eh kau nye new year’s resolution simpan duit untuk gi kl trip next year. $10 pun kau tak boleh save!” So fucking true! Anyway, Zanna is back from HK! Gw rindu banget sama lo. Kita klua k?!

Ever since nenek passed away, I have to put up with eating disorder; mom said I skipped meals almost everytime and when I do, the aftermath isn't so flattering because I had to gag a whole lot of coagulated molasses in the cubicle. And better yet it isn't solely the distinct reason, but because of some other horror-struck issues which made provisions totally out of the question. I know it's not healthy, and I really don't want this for myself either. It's like as if I'm suffering from anorexic *crying*

And my social life is forever haywire; it's been eons since I talked to some friends regardless of arguments, bitchfits or whatsoever. I miss them so fucking much. And my relationship is going nowhere either. To think that I'm not good for you, you once said I was a control psycho freak, hypercritical and possessive. I know we're going to call it quits sooner or later, but let's not be too quick to judge.

Enough of sentimental narrations! It's the holidays and I don't intent to work. I mean c'mon, school starts in less than a month and it's a short period to work. Unless you’re the workaholic type, then I'm whipped! The gang has been planning on a trip to Pulau Ubin on the 22nd, and I’m pretty enthu about this outing because that equates to cycling! Finally that extra workout I did before I sleep are finally going to pay off! Good thing there's a few upcoming plans, going out with super random people really made my day. In fact, it eventually made my mind at ease. I can't wait for tomorrow! *jumps around*

PS; those pictures are ours to keep <3

I'm not confused, I'm just well-mixed.